Happy First Birthday, Carter Brett Lawson!
Today is your FIRST BIRTHDAY! I am so excited about seeing you later today. It is so hard to believe all of the changes since you came into our lives. What will be ahead for you and all of us?
You were born 365 days ago, but God had chosen the exact day, long before. When I look back, now; it seems like a very short year compared to the long, long time we waited for you. Your Mommy and Daddy had prayed and prayed for a baby boy or girl to come into their lives. A lot of other people were praying, too. After some time, they decided to ask some other people to help them bring a new child into their family.
They talked with the wonderful people at Bethany Christian Services. They filled out a bunch of papers, talked with a bunch of people, started saving a bunch of money, and even making special efforts to get a bunch of extra money. There was lots to do to get ready for a baby! One of the most special things your Mom & Dad was to make a book about themselves along with a video for Birth Mommies to look at in order to decide if they would be a forever family for her little baby. Your Mommy and Daddy did a lot of thinking during this process.
They talked about how they wanted to parent, how to share their faith and wondered about who you would be. I was fascinated with how they communicated with each other during this time. They were tender and sweet and sometimes very playful about this subject of a child! Your Lolli & Pops and Skipper & I wrote letters to the Birth Mommies, too. It was very hard to write a letter such as that. We didn’t want to sound like we were begging for a baby, but that is certainly what we were doing to God in our prayers.
The day came without warning. Your Mommy and Daddy called to tell us they had a call from Bethany. It was Ash Wednesday. How fitting that as I write this, Ash Wednesday was only two days ago! Your Mommy called me at about 3:00 in the afternoon. They went to meet with Mr. Mark and Ms. Terri at Bethany and were told that they could pick you up the next morning! You were two weeks old on the day you were WELCOMED into their home, hearts and all of our lives. You were such a little boy! Skipper & I were so happy.
That night, your Mommy and Daddy went shopping for bottles, formula, diapers and the real necessities. The next day, Auntie M and I went shopping for little bitty clothes for you to wear. Then, on Friday, your Daddy called to say that we could come to see you! My heart beat so fast, all the way from Pilot Mountain to Knoxville! When we arrived, we thought we were seeing an angel! You were and still are the most precious little boy, EVER! (Don’t tell your Daddy and Uncle Jeremy.)
During the year that has passed, we have watched you grow. You are more than three times bigger than you were when you were born. You have learned SO much! You can talk and walk, play with toys and books, feed yourself and many more things. Your parents have learned as much as you have. The biggest thing they have learned is that their hearts can hold a whole lot more love than they thought before.
Your little personality is developing every day. You have the sweetest smile that melts my heart and you are rapidly learning how to use it to your best advantage! You have a funny expression that indicates you are going to be a little mischievous! You don’t cry much compared to most babies. You don’t sleep well when you are in a strange place. You are a very healthy eater, thanks to your parents! Each generation of parents seems to be much smarter about this, thank goodness. You have a lot of patience for a little boy.
On your birthday, I have dreams and wishes for you. I pray that you will be a strong and faithful Christian. I hope you will be well-educated and have a fulfilling career. Most of all, I hope you will be happy and healthy. I already know that you are loved beyond what we humans can measure. I hope that you will always know that your family supports you and that you can call on us any time you need help or just a listening ear.
With ALL my love, Ju-Ju
P.S. Miss Megan, you will always be my hero! Thank you for loving us and trusting us…